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Ashley, addict...
I smile a lot =) I'm trying my hardest to stop moving city to city, and most of all trying to stay clean one day at a time. I have been a member of NA for 3 years now. I have moved like a million times and thought I found myself and was doing good, then I pick up and lose my mind again. It was a vicious cycle for a long time. My last relapse really messed with my mind. I realized how much I truly love myself and want to be someone, not just a drug. ... so although i may sound incredibly convincing...lol i have moved 5 times in the past 5 months, i just moved to indianapolis 3 weeks ago and so far i'm diggin it....i haven't did dope in awhile, but i have relasped on little things, which I'M NOT HAPPY ABOUT. but i am gaining more knowledge of life everyday and there's experiences everywhere and miracles to be found if i search, which i definitely am looking these days....lol so I’m really bad at putting myself in a box, but I love reading and learning. i just got a job at borders books!! yay books all the time now ;) my dream, what keeps me off the streets mostly, is i want to be an author, so i want to read everything possible so i can one up every author out there ....isn't that how it's done? lol I paint a lot and make things out of clay... i'm planning on going to school to be an art teacher, but i have no idea what school, what city, what statem or even what damn country to go to school in, i move so freakin much it's been difficult.i love playing music. hmm i like outdoors... i feel at home outside....i would rather live in the woods in a tree and do the whole like plant my own food do everything, no society bullsh*t thing, but we all know how our minds play unrealistic dreams on us. i'm just coming to a very twisted realization that i'm suffering with some disassociation issues that are kind of making the whole life on lifes terms gig kind of impossible since i'm really never here....and umm i don't know if i should feel blessed or worry anymore, but anyways i hate being negative. i'm all about postive vibes and good energies. i really love life and traveling. i've been told all my life that i'm a free spirit and it's funny because as i get older i'm learning more about spirituality and how i believe as a human i am weak, but as a spirit, i'm strong, like i recognize the fact that earth isn't my original home and i sense this homesick feeling always. i believe i move a lot because i miss my friends i met before this place....lol weird eh... So anyways..i'm just trying to live life without drugs, trying not to complicate things, or over analyze. =)
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art, music,poetry, reading, stars, guitar, photography, philsophy, tattoos, weirdness, moons, astrology, astronomy, camping, live music, festivals, candles, incense, spiders, cats, animals in general, meeting new people, meeting new animals, exploring the universe, recycle, shopping, painting, pottery, picking berries, eating chocolate, rain, trees, maynard keenan, forests, hiking, snow flakes, long conversations, biology, the craft, pychology, outdoors,mythology, alex grey,etc.
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fake people, society, bush, sports, the US, ignorance, clones,rap music, parties, people who hurt animals, the sun in my eyes, littering, taking a shower, having to pee, having to eat and wake up every morning, regardless of whether i realized long ago that it is pointless. etc i also hate homophobics and racist individuals. =/
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tool, grateful dead,nin,rusted root,bob marley, blind melon, widespread panic, allman bros, moe, kellar williams, ben harper, YMSB, dave matthews, lucero, led zeppelin,311,jack johnson,cake,matt nathanson, half time string band, zen, hendrix,coldplay, incubus, smashing pumpkins, etc
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ayn rand is a GREAT author. i enjoy reading philosophy, anything spiritual or astrology, creative, wiccan, and the basic text of course :)
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dazed and confused, super troopers, girl interrupted, the illusionist, the island, fear and loathing in las vegas, garden state, across the universe, forest gump, also anything by happy madison productions, tim burton, and rob zombie.
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playing guitar, painting w/ acrylics, burning champa, meditating, counting, traveling the earth , nature, animals, going to shows, festivals,camping in the jungles, catching bugs, especially lightning bugs and other weird creatures, dancing to complete silence, singing, studying the world, looking for truth. amusing myself 
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November 19, 2008, 6:51 pm So
last
night
I
had
a
dream
that
there
were
4
snakes
on
some
guys
shirt…
well
the
snakes
turned
into
a
tattoo
on
my
arm,
then
they
actually
became
real
snakes
on
my
arm….well
then
they came
off
my
arm
and
were
a
part
of
the
world, October 29, 2008, 7:48 pm October 26, 2008, 7:48 pm October 18, 2008, 7:25 pm October 1, 2008, 10:57 am
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