I have decided to join addictiontribe because My compussive behavior and addiction is worrying. It is an addiction that feeds on it self for me. It causes me anxiety and panic attacks, agoraphobia.
I have also some issues with codependency. I am an adult child of an alocholic. My mother died when I was 16. My mother was an alcoholic.
I have spent most of my life graviating twards others who are very chaotic, very unheatly for me, litteraly toxic.
Above I will be frank about where I feel I am. I am looking for support and friendship and help to understand the 12 steps better.

I find it really hard to pull stuff out to afirm the kind of person I really am but I will try. I am dedicated and hardworking I am trustworthy and loyal I am deep and thoughtful I am creative and Talented. I am special in God's eyes I lean on my religion to be strong. I am a nurturer

Big Points that cause me to be CO-Dependent -I tend to fear and/or worry about how others may repsond to their feelings -I assume responsibilty for other people's feelings. -Bolster my self-esteem by trying to solve other people's problems -Bolster my self-esteem by trying to relieve other people's pain -I tend to put others people's wants and needs before my own _I am profectionistic and tend to place too many expecations on myself and others. -I tend to judge everything I say or do harshly, by someone else's standards. _ I have difficulty in forming and/or maintaining close relations with others. -I have to feel needed in order to have a relationship with another.

Homecomming by John Bradshaw Codependent No More- Melody battie The Anxiety and Phobia Workbook- Edmond Bourne

because of my anxiety I have a hard time, doing alot. I have been better and I am getting better. I just need to get locked in with a group of people who see things as one day at a time. I enjoy church, singing, karaoke, bowling, arts and crafts and music from the 1940s-1990's

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