Addiction

I am a 57 year old . I'm into my 12th year of my second marriage. Have two grown children from my first marriage. First marriage ended because of my drug and alcohol use and my incredibly selfish behavior. I have an obsessive compulsive personality, which manifests itself in my alcoholism and my drug addiction. Got sober in 1988 and turned my life over to a power greater than myself. Though I've been succesful at staying sober, I managed to pick up a pretty serious gambling addiction, and have struggled to stop gambling for abou 14 years-(stayed clean three years once, but currently am recovering from a relapse of a month or so in November 06. I ran my family's bowling center in Omaha for 35 years, and last year, after many years of hating my job, we sold it. I'm currently taking some college classes. Hopefully, now that I'm sober, I'll remember the importance of going to class and doing the work. Though I tried it in the sixties, I have little memory of anything but the partying. Mywife works at the colleg so I get free tuition. Hopefully I'll be able to figure out what I want to do when I grow up by the time i finish up.

Recovery, Sick jokes, Sex, Ice Cream, Pizza, money, sleeping late, seeing addicts recover, lazy boy recliner, babies, my kids, time off, independence, the spiritual life.

Conceited people, arrogant people, hippocrites, people who insist their way is the only way, nazi ex-smokers, born again types who don't change their behavior and believe it's OK to skip the steps, cuz "Jesus has changed me", know it alls, people who pass up opportunity to participate, then criticize those that do.

Most anything between 1955 and 1990. Then I get selective. Love Beatles and their peers, beach boys, Jay and the americans, neil sedaka, neil diamond, johnny rivers, chuck berry, johnny cash, bob dylan, gilbert o'sullivan, elvis, waylan jennings, jerry jeff walker, martin mull, Dan hicks, tommy james and the shondells, peter , paul and mary, simon and garfunkel, peter and gordon, dave clark five, jan and dean, john sebastion, mamas and papas, anne murray, patsy cline, gloria estevan, laura branigan, kingston trio, four seasons, the who, the guess who, hook.

Any Steven King, The road less travelled, further down the road less travelled, alcoholics anonymous, autobiography of malcom x, complete adventures of sherlock holmes,Huckleberry finn, tom sawyer, connecticut yankee in king arthur's court, any arthur haley, biographies of american folk heroes, Godfather, jaws, jurassic park, most science fistion-favorites bradbury and hineline.

Almost famous, One flew over the cuckoo's nest, the graduate, Hombre, Paint your wagon, Music Man, Camelot, Fast times at ridgemont high, Rocky,
ET the extraterrestial, My best friend's wedding,
Die-hard, the warriors, Dirty Harry(all of them), Any James bond with Sean Connery, Dressed to kill, Charade, Hard times, Death Wish, My bodyguard, Karate Kid, Oh God!

Tivo, laughing, going to meetings, Nebraska football, finding places for all my "stuff", procrastinating, reading, mourning the passing of the sixties and seventies, thinking about starting that diet.