I have a wonderful baby girl she is 2 years old now and I do not see how I ever lived my live befor she came along. I would have to say she is most of the reason i am still clean today!!!! I am very happy go lucky person, but also a depressed person at the same time. I get along with pretty much everone. My addiction, how it all started....I was 18 the frist time I had somked my frist joint, and it was not very long after that that I had tryed meth for the frist time. I had tryed almost every durg out there there is to try, but meth was my drug, I loved it!! For a while all I did was snort or somke it, but after a while that got boring to me I wanted a bigger and better hi, so I started to shoot up,and I loved that even more, the most wost mistake I had ever made in my life. After I had started that, my addiction to meth became so much worse, I would do anything to get it and to stay hi. Me and my ex hubby lost everything we had more than once, My Mom would take us in till we got back on our feet, then the hole nightmear would start all over. What made me quit for the frist time was, I had been up for a very long time, and thought my ex hubby had a gun and was going to kill me, I freaked and called the cops, and told them the hole story that we had been up for days doing meth. That night the cops said that me and my hubby should spend the night apart, I had to stay with my Mom, she new I was hi on meth, she stayed up with me the hole time and held my had, the look and hurt on her face is something I will never forget!!! After that I new it was time to change my ways, I was clean for 7 months, and doing good, I came home from work one day and my ex was hi on meth so I sliped one more time for a while, that is when I told my ex to get out I could not be clean with him around, it was to hard, I did not want it around me any more. It was about 4 months after me and my ex had split and I had found the man of my dreams, never done one drug in his life, and under stood my hole past, and told me if I messed up just once, that was it he would be gone. I loved him so much I did not want that to happend, so it was from then and there that that I have not touched one more drug. Now I have a wouderful baby girl, with my baby and him they are the motovaion I have to be and stay clean, though it is hard at times.'The will of God will never take you where the
> Grace of God will not protect you'
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