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Good sharing SOB's
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By:
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alanoriley
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Mood:
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Devious
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Date:
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Feb 03, 2013
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Music:
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None
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February
03,
2013
Good
sharing
SOB’s,
what
are
they
good
for?
I
am
utterly
amazed
how
much
bulls^^t
I
hear
around
tables.
Earlier
tonight
a
gentleman
who
had
been
using
drugs
for
23
years
got
his
60
day
tag.
Unfortunately,
I
see
so
many
people
come
in
the
doors
and
not
make
to
60
days.
“John”
did,
and
you
could
literally
see
the
difference
from
6
weeks
ago
when
I
first
met
him.
He
struggled
his
whole
way
through.
White
knuckled
it,
I
would
say
because
I
went
through
the
same
exact
hell.
It’s
one
of
the
few
times
I
can
honestly
say
it
touched
me,
it
brought
back
memories.
Typically
I
am
indifferent
during
the
key
tag
ceremony.
One
of
the
reason’s
I
attend
AA
much
more
then
NA
is
that
by
the
time
the
key
tags
are
handed
out
I’m
ready
to
leave.
For
me,
it’s
too
much,
the
readings,
the
reports,
blah,
blah,
blah.
In
any
event,
once
we
sat
down,
read
the
entire
second
step
and
started
our
table,
the
first
gentleman,
loosely
titled,
proceeded
to
call
class
in
session
and
began
speaking
directly
to
John
about
what
he
should
be
doing,
where
he
should
be
with
his
higher
power,
and
literally
told
him
he’d
be
lucky
to
get
his
90
day
tag
because
he
was
far
short
of
doing
his
90
in
90.
He
told
John
that
he
had
done
97
meetings
in
his
first
90
days
and
now
that
he
has
137
days
free
from
heroin,
he
no
longer
obsesses
about
using
drugs
and
that
his
higher
power
had
even
taken
away
any
urges
like
he
experienced
in
the
first
90
days.
”I
don’t
even
think
about
drugs
anymore.”
What?
What
did
he
just
say?
I
missed
something.
You
what?
“I
did
my
forth
step
at
90
days
and
it
really
set
me
free.”
Oh
no
he
didn’t.
I
was
preparing
to
strike.
I
was
speaking
next
no
matter
what.
In
that
moment
God’s
grace
allowed
me
a
moment
of
clarity,
maybe
understanding.
This
is
not
the
place.
It
not
even
my
place
to
say
anything.
Not
at
the
tables.
Let
it
go.
I
hear
some
ridiculous
crap
sitting
around
tables.
One
of
my
major
defects
is
I
want
to
pounce
on
NA
gurus
with
all
that
“good
sharing”
bull.
Recovery
for
me
is
not
and
especially
early
recovery
was
not
butterflies
and
rainbows.
In
my
addiction,
I
started
with
alcohol
and
spent
the
next
22
years
progressing
my
way
to
heroin,
which
I
used
for
the
last
5
years
exclusively.
By
the
end
I
had
done
every
miserable,
disgusting,
humiliating
thing
to
everyone
around
me
a
drug
addict
can
do
to
those
who
love
him.
I
discussed
this
with
my
sponsor
on
many
occasions
because
I
would
get
pissed
off
sometimes
sitting
at
tables
listening
to
people
wondering
if
they
could
hear
themselves.
What
he
told
me
makes
a
lot
of
sense
but
is
still
sometimes
hard
to
remember
because
my
thick
skull
gets
in
the
way.
His
point
was,
if
there
was
a
beautiful
buffet
set
up
for
dinner
with
shrimp,
lobster,
prime
rib,
all
the
things
I
love
to
eat,
yet
there
was
a
bowl
of
fried
donkey
dicks,
why
do
I
always
want
to
pick
the
donkey
dicks?
I
know
it
sounds
retarded
but
his
point
was
always
don’t
concentrate
on
the
negative.
Let
it
go.
Take
what
is
good
at
the
table
and
leave
the
rest
at
the
table.
Even
in
life
I
tend
to
be
drawn
to
the
negative.
I
have
to
always
remind
myself.
It’s
not
about
me.
Truly,
without
AA
and
NA
I
would
not
be
around
today.
I
believe
that.
I
am
grateful
that
they
accepted
me
so
freely.
I
had
to
thank
God
not
only
for
his
blessings
on
me
and
John
but
especially
for
bringing
the
other
gentleman
into
our
life.
My
one
buddy
who
shares
the
same
sponsor
as
I
do
had
to
say,
“he’s
right
where
he’s
supposed
to
be”,
which
is
exactly
what
our
sponsor
says
repeatedly.
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