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By: Mimi
Mood: Anxious
Date: Jan 07, 2013
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Hello everyone. I found this web page while looking for some support with my addiction. I am alone in my misery, and I am hoping to meet friends here and get some support. I have been addicted to oxycontin for about 4 years. It started with some shoulder problems and surgery. Of course, it felt good to take the pain pills. Pretty soon, the pain was gone, but my desire to continue remained. I would lie to my doctor about my pain, and get more pills. As you all probably understand, I became dependent on them to feel "happy". Over time, changes in my life occurred that were very stressful. My kids went to college, we sold our large home, and I eventually divorced my husband of 20 years. (although that was a definite good thing!) Anyway, anytime a stressful situation occurred, I would pop pills for help. Now I am trying to get my life back. I have a new place and a nice boyfriend, but I am so scared to be without my security net. I know I have a problem, thats the easy part. I know that the withdrawal sucks big time, but that is not my fear. I have read that long term abuse changes the brain function of being happy by itself. That is my fear. I am afraid that I will freak-out or go into panic mode when my crutch is gone?! Help! I want sooo badly to get clean again and feel natural happiness. Thanks for listening. It feels good just to get my feelings out!




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January 7, 2013, 11:47 pm

Mimi-


Your Very welcome, but really, don't thank me, thank God.  He got you here and He will get you there by providing who and what you need to succeed in your recovery.


Thoughts and prayers 


 



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January 7, 2013, 9:49 pm
My prayers are with you. If I can get sober anyone can! God Bless

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From: Mimi
January 7, 2013, 6:42 pm

Thank you so much for sending me that note. I started crying when I read it. It feels so good to have someone understand what i am going through and you seem to be doing well. It gives me hope. God bless you



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January 7, 2013, 5:01 pm

Thanks Mimi,


As I just noted on a great message sent here the other day, I convinced myself that sticking a needle full of poisin in my arm was good for me.  I choose poisin over food.  My brain function certainly changed it's perception of happiness.  The good news is it changes back too.  If you truly want to get/ stay clean RECOGNIZE you can make progress everyday, laugh from deep inside again, smile because you want to not because your expected too.  But be sure and remember, when your brain tells you to get some oxy's, it's telling you to kill yourself.  Embrace the positive things that come out of sobriety, even after a couple days.  Forget all that crap about, "it takes time."  If you stay clean time is what you'll finally have most of.



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