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I'm new here
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By:
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Mimi
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Mood:
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Anxious
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Date:
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Jan 07, 2013
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Music:
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None
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Hello
everyone.
I
found
this
web
page
while
looking
for
some
support
with
my
addiction.
I
am
alone
in
my
misery,
and
I
am
hoping
to
meet
friends
here
and
get
some
support.
I
have
been
addicted
to
oxycontin
for
about
4
years.
It
started
with
some
shoulder
problems
and
surgery.
Of
course,
it
felt
good
to
take
the
pain
pills.
Pretty
soon,
the
pain
was
gone,
but
my
desire
to
continue
remained.
I
would
lie
to
my
doctor
about
my
pain,
and
get
more
pills.
As
you
all
probably
understand,
I
became
dependent
on
them
to
feel
"happy".
Over
time,
changes
in
my
life
occurred
that
were
very
stressful.
My
kids
went
to
college,
we
sold
our
large
home,
and
I
eventually
divorced
my
husband
of
20
years.
(although
that
was
a
definite
good
thing!)
Anyway,
anytime
a
stressful
situation
occurred,
I
would
pop
pills
for
help.
Now
I
am
trying
to
get
my
life
back.
I
have
a
new
place
and
a
nice
boyfriend,
but
I
am
so
scared
to
be
without
my
security
net.
I
know
I
have
a
problem,
thats
the
easy
part.
I
know
that
the
withdrawal
sucks
big
time,
but
that
is
not
my
fear.
I
have
read
that
long
term
abuse
changes
the
brain
function
of
being
happy
by
itself.
That
is
my
fear.
I
am
afraid
that
I
will
freak-out
or
go
into
panic
mode
when
my
crutch
is
gone?!
Help!
I
want
sooo
badly
to
get
clean
again
and
feel
natural
happiness.
Thanks
for
listening.
It
feels
good
just
to
get
my
feelings
out!
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