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when it rains if pours
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By:
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sexysiren911
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Mood:
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Lonely
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Date:
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May 04, 2007
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Music:
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None
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I
can't
understand
how
someone
can
manipulate
someone
else's
life
so
much.
My
ex
sponsor
has
spoken
to
my
Italian
step-mother
(who
takes
things
american's
say
very
literally)
and
told
her
that
I
wasn't
kicked
out
of
my
mother's
house,
or
my
sponsor's
house,
but
that
i
just
refused
to
take
responsibility
for
my
actions.
She
also
mentioned
that
I
was
drunk
or
high
24/7
and
my
mother
had
to
pick
me
up
from
the
Miliraty
Police
station
every
night...Now,
the
truth
is,
I
got
picked
up
twice
because
I'm
a
violent
drunk...I
have
assault
charges
pending
for
attacking
a
man
who
asked
me
if
I
was
a
prostitute.
Broke
his
nose
and
my
hand....I'm
completely
willing
to
face
the
consiquences
of
my
actions...but
my
mother
kicked
me
out
after
I
showed
up
to
an
AA
meeting
drunk...understandable...i
was
irresponsible
and
drunk...and
ungrateful...now
i
called
my
sponsor
because
i
had
nowhere
to
go
and
she
took
me
in
a
cut
me
off
from
the
rest
of
the
world
and
my
family
for
two
months...after
these
two
months
were
up,
she
found
out
i
had
written
a
letter
to
my
ex
boyfriend
in
the
US
and
told
me
to
pack
my
things
because
she
was
going
to
drop
me
off
in
downtown
vicenza,
italy
to
find
a
homeless
shelter.
So
i
asked
her
if
i
could
move
in
with
my
father
instead....she
got
pissed
and
i
grabbed
my
things
and
left.
now
she's
telling
my
step
mom
that
i
walked
out,
even
though
she
had
me
pack
my
things
because
she
was
kicking
me
out
anyways...also,
she
said
i
walked
out
of
my
mother's
house,
which
isn't
true
because
for
days
i
called
my
mom
cryuing
asking
if
i
could
come
home.
she
was
only
doing
what
was
best
for
me,
but
i
tried
to
go
back
to
her
house.
...all
this
time,
you've
got
to
keep
in
mind
that
i
only
came
back
to
europe
to
go
to
rehab
for
opiates
(injecting
oxy's).
crack,
methadone,
and
cocaine(injecting)and
i
was
only
90
lbs
when
i
came
back.
now
that
i'm
healthy
again
i
want
to
go
back
to
florida
where
my
home,
car,
job,
and
friends
are.
but
my
sponsor
told
my
mom
not
to
let
me
have
my
passports....i'm
twenty
two
f@cking
years
old!
so
now
dad
is
trying
to
get
e
a
new
one
because
i'm
not
allowed
near
my
mother's
house....i
just
want
to
go
home
and
continue
my
recovery
ing
florida,
where
i
feel
like
i
fit
in.
here
i
get
called
a
afreak,
a
whore,
a
junkie...every
name
in
the
book
just
because
i
have
tattoos
and
piercings
and
boobs!!!!i
don't
know
what
to
do
anymore
and
suicide
is
looking
better
every
day...but
my
dad
sat
me
down
last
night
and
told
me
how
i
should
behave
around
these
people
on
the
military
base
where
i
spend
most
of
my
time
and
that
i
should
use
all
this
negativity
towards
me
as
motivation
to
prove
them
all
wrong
and
to
go
f@ck
themeselves....also,
i
have
people
betting
money
that
i
won't
stay
sober.
they're
just
sitting
and
waiting
for
me
to
fall
flat
on
my
face
just
so
they
can
say
"that's
my
point"
my
ex
sponsor
being
one
of
them....nobody
here
understands
and
i
only
have
five
or
six
people
in
my
aa
group...i
want
to
go
to
a
group
in
the
US
so
that
there
are
people
my
age
and
who
have
similar
problems
and
pasts....just
because
i'm
young
doesn't
make
me
naive,
nor
does
it
make
me
stupid....i
just
want
some
peers
in
my
group
whom
i
can
relate
to.
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