God is Good

By: susnashine Mood: Happy Date: Jul 07, 2008 Music: none

Two weeks ago I left my necklace at the community pool. I rarely if ever removed this necklace unless of course I am going swimming. In any case I left it and didn't realize I wasn't wearing it until quite sometime later. I went into a complete panic rushing back to the pool only to find the necklace gone. I put up signs all around the office and the pool area. I live in a very small park, almost like a small village. I of course being only human started thinking the worst, was it stolen?, why would anyone just take a cross and turquoise pendant and not turn it into the office?  My mind went right back to the wrong way of thinking. How can I look at anyone and not suspect them?, etc.  I was rapidly sinking into a pit of negativity. Then, I realized after my Mother said "you have to let it go" that God was speaking through her to me.  I have been praying daily for strength to not sink into depression over the whole situation. Losing the necklace reopened the whole loss, grief, guilt and fear issues that I have been working through since the love of my life departed this planet two years ago. These feelings, realities, emotions however you perceive them are in addition to my daily choice to stay sober.My prayers helped me to recenter myself and my thinking.  It took me almost a week and a half to let it go after God spoke to me via my Mom. I asked God to help me get on without it. The necklace was my keepsake of my deceased husband who was also an addict. His addiction didn't kill him( he had 11 years sobriety when he died), the health conditions resulting from years of abusing his body did. The necklace is very very special to me.  Well, today almost 2 weeks later there is a knock on my door. A lady who visits her parent had found the necklace, cleaned it and told me that she had even tried to wear it but it did not feel right on her. She saw my sign at the pool today and brought me the necklace and as she was leaving kindly said Jesus loves you and God Bless. My faith has been given a huge boost and I just felt like sharing it with the people who understand the most just how fragile our lives as recovering addicts are. It is amazing to me that almost 15 years later I am still so easily flustered. I will continue to ask God for strength, for faith and to bless each and everyone of us. What I am saying is never give up. Sometimes letting go is in reality receiving more, more of God's love, power and strength to continue on our journey down here without relying on material objects. I am so grateful to have my necklace back, but I am more grateful for a loving God who cares about us right down to the smallest detail. Much love and unceasing blessings to you all.