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mY NAME IS cHARLENE BUT MY FRIENDS CALL ME "CHAR". I'VE BEEN IN ROCOVERY SINCE 8-22-2002. THIS IS MY STORY.I STARTED USING AT THE AGE OF 12 YRS OLD. MY GATEWAY DRUG WAS WEED WHICH LED ME TO MANY OTHERS. I LOVED TO PARTY AND THE MORE DRUGS THE BETTER. I HAVE EXPERIENCED A LOT OF DIFFERENT DRUGS THROUGHOUT MY DAYS. UPPERS, WAS MY THING SO ANYTHING THAT MADE ME FEEL LIKE I WAS ON TOP OF THE WORLD I DID. BUT, I ALSO DID WHAT WOULD BRING ME DOWN TOO. I DRANK A LOT AND MADE A FOOL OF MYSELF MANY TIMES. HOW I GOT HERE: AFTER 25 YRS. OF USING, I MANANGED TO LOOSE MY HOUSE, JOB AND EVENTUALLY MY DAUGHTER WHO WAS 10 YRS OLD AT THE TIME. I WAS 37 YRS. OLD AND PRETTY WASHED UP. I HAD NEVER BEEN BUSTED BEFORE BUT I DID 2X IN 4 WEEKS. MY SECOND ARREST WAS FOR BEING UNDER THE INFLUENCE WHILE AT COURT FOR MY DAUGHTER BEING LATE TO SCHOOL ALL OF THE TIME. I TRIED DOING THE OUTPATIENT THING BUT I LEARNED REAL QUICK HOW TO WORK THAT SYSTEM SO IT DID ME NO GOOD. AFTER MY DAUGHTER WAS TAKEN, I RAN EVEN HARDER. AT THIS TIME, I WAS HOMELESS AND LIVING IN MY CAR. I HAD A HUSSLE THAT SUPPORTED MY HABIT AND THAT'S WHAT I DID FOR ANOTHER 3 MOS BEFORE GOING INTO REHAB. I WAS COURT ORDERED!! IT WAS PROBABLY THEE HARDEST THING I'VE EVER DONE. I DIDN'T LIKE IT, I DIDN'T LIKE BEING TOLD WHAT TO DO, WHEN TO DO IT, AND HOW TO DO IT!! BUT I HAD CONSEQUENCES, EITHER DO IT OR GO TO PRISON!! I REALLY HAD NO INTENSIONS ON STAYING CLEAN. I THOUGHT I JUST LET IT CONTROL ME, NOT THAT I HAD A PROBLEM. I STOOD BY THAT FOR A LONG TIME BUT ONE DAY WHEN I WAS JUST ABOUT TO GRADUATE, MY COUSELOR SUGGESTED I GO TO A SOBER LIVING AND I ACTUALLY TOOK HER SUGGESTION AND DID JUST THAT. I LIVED THERE FOR 7 MOS. AND THEN GOT MY DAUGHTER BACK AND WE MOVED INTO A PLACE OF OUR OWN. I'M PROUD TO SAY THAT I'M A WOMEN TODAY THAT GIVES BACK TO THIS PROGRAM ON A DAILY BASIS. I HAVE A SPONSOR AND I TAKE DIRECTION EVEN IF I DON'T LIKE IT. I'VE LEARNED THAT I DON'T KNOW sh*t!! IF I KEEP MY MOUTH SHUT, I JUST MIGHT BE ABLE TO KEEP WHAT LITTLE BIT OF TIME I HAVE!! I DO A LOT OF MEETINGS, I AM THE VICE PRESIDENT OF ALUMNI, AND I SPONSOR A LOT OF WOMEN. I HIT CONVENTIONS, DANCES, AND I SUPPORT BOTH PROGRAMS!! I HAVE A BEAUTIFUL RELATIONSHIP WITH THAT 10 YR OLD WHO IS NOW 15. SINCE BEING HERE I'VE MANAGED TO WALK THRU CANCER, THE DEATH (OVERDOSE) OF MY BF OF 7 YRS. AND 7 MOS LATER THE DEATH OF MY BROTHER. IT'S ONLY BY GOD'S GRACE AND THE PEOPLE IN MY LIFE THAT HAVE SHOWN ME THE WAY TO A BEAUTIFUL LIFE THAT I AM STILL HERE. I SHARE THAT ONLY TO GIVE YOU HOPE THAT NO MATTER WHAT YOU DON'T EVER HAVE TO USE AGAIN.
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November 22, 2007, 10:20 am HAPPY
THANSGIVING
TO
EACH
OF
YOU!!
OK
SO
I
JUST
NEEDED
TO
WRITE
AND
LET
OUT
THE
FEELINGS
THAT
I
WAS
GOING
THRU
YESTERDAY.
IT
WAS
THE
1
YR.
ANNIVERSARY
OF
WHEN
MY
BOYFRIEND
OVERDOSED
ON
HEROIN
AND DIED....IT
WAS
A
VERY
ROUGH
DAY
FOR
ME
BUT
THIS September 28, 2007, 11:46 pm September 28, 2007, 11:44 pm September 28, 2007, 1:16 pm August 26, 2007, 11:02 am
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