Hey everybody, I am a 22 year old student from Melbourne, Australia and I have a problem with alcohol. I don't know how to define it yet because its only gotten worse over recent months. I suffer from depression, anxiety and OCD and am on medication, but I think the medication isn't working as well as it should, because of drinking. I've found myself going through ridiculous amounts of alcohol in the past few weeks and have been drinking earlier and earlier in the day. I'm here for support but also to understand why I am like this and what caused me to drink in the first place. I have a very low self-esteem and always have. Sometimes I feel like I can only confront a social situation with a drink, and I use drinking to not deal with problems in my relationship. My supportive boyfriend is concerned about how much I drink but he knows no where near the extent. And he has stopped asking me to stop because he knows I will just tell him I can do what I want. And that if he can smoke cigarettes, I can drink. But he has stopped smoking cold turkey 3 months ago. Also this excessive consumption of alcohol has made me gain 10 kilos in 4 months. Now I hate my body and that drives me to drink...
Anyway sorry for that long winded explanation. I just wanted to get that out there.
I don't know what to do anymore.
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Black Sally is a metaphor for alcohol and the song is about the grip of alcohol and how it ruins your life - have a listen, very clever lyrics by the Australian Hip Hop group 'Funkoars'
I
just
found
out
about
this
BBC
documentary
called
'Rain
in
My
Heart'.
I
watched
all
ten
parts
last
night
on
youtube and
it
gave
me
the
kick
in
the
butt
I
finally
