Hi there,

I can't be the only person in the world that is cranky sober. I am at work and there are 500 things to do, none of them pleasant. I am bored witless at home at nights - they seem endless at the moment.

I had no idea that sober people had to wait so long to watch all that crap TV after 9.30pm at night. All the good stuff like "Cops!" and "Cheaters!" and all those other shows made for drunk people like me getting home from "work drinks". OK, so my work drinks started at midday - but I was technically supposed to be at work so that still counts.......right?

Well, it's Friday afternoon at 4pm am I at AT WORK and bored almost into a coma. My friends are at the pub, no doubt talking about their "fallen comrade". I have taken up gym, walking 32km a week, pilates and yoga. I have a new personal coach and a fully spreadsheeted set of "life goals".

If I hear one more person tell me to live the moment, go for a walk, take some time out or take it a step at a time - I am going to SCREAM.

To tell you the truth, I feel like sh*t. sh*t sh*t sh*t sh*t sh*t!

Do you ever feel there is a sort of pressure to take up perfect things when you give up drugs? I talk to people about what they would do if they gave up drinking - write a book, they say! Or go to the gym, take up a new hobby, plant a new garden....blah, blah,blah.  Has anyone ever said they want to watch more porn? I do! Is it so bad to admit that I might also want to have more opportunitic and random snogging?

Ladies and gents, I just want to make one thing clear. I would rather set myself on fire than have so much as a light beer. Come to think of it, I would rather set most people I know on fire for no reason at all.

I am just sooooo sick of everyone being so damn perfect. Giving up booze, or any drug, is sh*t sometimes and I don't need a bloody poem from Depak Chopra to make me better.

Aaaaahhhhh, I am better now.

Keep dancin'

DDxx