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Mood: Full of life
Date: Jul. 22, 2008
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Tonight's meeting was a good reminder for me. I had a fairly young woman sitting next to me so ill from being dope sick. The whole time not being able to stay still, bundled in multi layers in this nasty humidity, getting up to be ill in the bathroom every 5-10 minutes, and hunched over in pain. Really was a good reminder of where I have been many times and helps with those sick visions in my mind I get every so often about the lost love I had. It definitly was no love, and she was a good reminder of how evil it really is. I felt really bad for her cause I knew exactly where she was at and I hope I continue to see her and she can finally one day begin to be at peace with her self. So one in who really needed it, but also one of my good friends there went back out 2 days ago and it was very upsetting to find out about. But I have faith that he will have the strength to make it back and re find the bliss he had been achieving. All in all my faith in this program is growing more and am grateful for my 63 days I have now. I have the feeling this time it will work because I am truely working it and it feels great.





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July 23, 2008, 11:23 am

Hi, 

Thank you for sharing.

Last evening I saw the same thing, except this person is very near and precious to me. A family member.

I got the call. I am stopping, I haven't used in alittle over 24hours. I am tired. I want help. I don't want to live this way anymore.

Then he came to my house. Broke my heart. He was sick, weak, pale, sweat pouring off of him, thin.  Detoxing out every pour it looked like.

A shell of the person he was. A stranger to me. I don't know this person. But I know this is the drug, that isn't him.

He knows the program. He tried once before NA and went back out there to let the disease show him once again how bad it can and will kick your as-.

Is he going too do it this time. I sure hope so. But this is his journey and I can't do it for him. I planted the seeds. God makes them grow.

The program works, but you have to work it, at least as hard as you worked at using. This disease is ugly, it is a monster.  I hate it with a passion.

But I am grateful there is help, and you can change it if you are ready. But if you aren't no one is able.

Take care. And hang in there. Like most addicts, you have the heart to be of serve to others.

Paris



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From: steveb
July 23, 2008, 2:13 am

as one that was a junkie for 10 yrs, i also need to see and here what you did. clean and sober for 61/2 yrs now, i can tell you that it gets better. the it is YOU! steps, spononsorship, prayer, and meetings. it has worked for me so far.

stay connected.   be good to yourself today, steve 



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