I
have
to
say,
When
my
counselor
was
talking
to
me
about
filling a
whole
within
with
god
about
5pm
I
was
feel
a
lil
worried
on
how
I
was
going
to
do
that.
Then
i
had
my
coda
meeting
at
8,
and
what
would
you
know
it
went
right
along
with
being
equal
and
lots
of
what
was
talked
about
had
to
do
with
people
not
fitting
in,
and
having
that
void
in
thier
soul
that
i
talked
with
my
counselor
about
just
earlier.
I
tried
to
speak
but
the
panic
just
struck
me
as
i
was
talking,
i
didn't
know
quite
were
to
look,
the
ground
is
nausiating
because
its
a
church
building.
I
couldn't
even
tell
you
what
i
said,
i
wanted
to
go
on
about
how
i
gravitaded
twards
a
person
a
girlfriend
i
wanted
to
save,
I
so
could
relate
with
what
one
person
was
saying
about
a
relationship,
they
got
in
with
thier
other
person
and
that
they
felt
like
that
person
is
more
broken
then
they
are,
it
gives
them
a
since
of
power
and
they
felt
better
about
themselves.
I
wanted
to
agree
and
spit
the
words
out
but
then
i
had
a
constant
panic
over
me,
i
was
really
figity.
I
guess
it
means
that
it
stirred
up
a
ton
for
me.
I
don't
know
where
to
start
to
becoming
whole,
sometimes
i
get
a
glimpse
of
it,
then
its
like
a
tidal
wave
comes
in
and
just
takes
it
away
again.
the
people
are
just
friendly
there,
and
all
i
remember
saying
was
that
im
glad
to
be
there
and
i
can
feel
like
i
am
around
others
who
accept
me
as
i
am
and
are
like
me.
I
feel
a
little
bit
of
shame
for
having
anxiety,
plus
i
seen
another
girl
shaking
really
bad
too.
I
don't
know...
thanks
for
listening
