long
story
short,
i
relapsed
after
staying
for
a
few
months
and
istarted
to
giveup
on
mysef
and
look
for
exuces
to
use
basically
i
started
acting
like
an
addict
again.
&
i
ended
up
making
a
pretty
decision
by
running
away
i
learned
that
nothing
good
will
ever
come
out
of
using
considering
i
had
to
stay
in
jdc
and
a
group
home
for
amonth
again
aftyer
getting
picked
up
no
matter
how
far
youve
gotten
in
your
recovery
and
how
hard
youve
worked
as
soon
as
you
use
you
go
right
back
to
where
you
left
off
there
are
2
different
people
inside
me
the
addict
& someone
who
wants
to
do
right
and
stop
causing
her
family
pain
my
parents
are
really
the
only
people
wholl
be
there
for
me
in
the
end
not
my
so
called
friends
&they
arent
really
my
friends
if
there
giving
me
drugs
drugs
change
who
you
are
and
at
somepoint
down
the
road
they
will
get
out
of
hand
it
doesnt
matter
who
you
are
no
matter
how
much
i
use
i
cant
get
rid
of
my
problems
ther
always
going
to
be
there
and
there
only
going
to
get
worse
until
i
face
them
&
i
can
only
face
them
sober
maybe
its
ok
to
be
a
loner
sometimes
espeacially
if
i
dont
have
anyone
positive
to
be
around,
i
can
just
take
this
time
out
to
figure
out
who
i
really
am
and
how
i
can
face
my
problems
that
ive
been
trying
to
avoid
and
finally
that
addiction
is
my
disease
&
i
cant
blame
anyone
for
the
decisions
i
have
made
in
my
past
i
got
myself
here
noone
else
and
im
the
only
person
that
can
get
myself
better
this
is
a
battle
that
im
going
to
have
fight
everyday
for
the
rest
of
my
life
