The
man
that
I
have
been
in
love
with
for
the
past
18
years
is
using
drugs
once
again,
I
have
a
15
year
old
dauhter,
and
we
have
a
12
year
old
son.
They
are
my
life,
my
ex
pretty
much
has
raised
my
daughter
when
he
was
around.
She
loves
him
more
then
her
own
father
which
she
sees
every
other
week,
but
the
toll
of
someone
using
has
put
a
large
rift
between
them
as
well
as
his
son
and
myself.
He
left
the
house
about
5
weeks
ago,
and
as
each
week
passes
we
may
see
him
once
a
week
and
each
week
he
looses
more
weight,
and
just
looks
as
if
he's
getting
further
away
from
us.
He
chooses
to
hang
around
people
who
I
have
come
to
find
out
are
using,
which
he
has
been
around
for
the
past
3
months
when
our
problems
started.
He
stopped
coming
hime
after
work,
would
show
up
3
or
4
hours
later
sometimes
longer
and
be
completely
drunk,
and
after
looking
back
his
mood
and
yelling
I
relize
it
wasn't
just
the
drinking.
I
have
never
seen
him
this
bad
in
this
way,
it
was
a
everyday
Monday
thru
Thursday
thing
and
sometimes
Fridays.
The
weekend
he
was
at
home
and
a
different
person.
Each
time
he
goes
back
to
drug
use
he
stays
away
from
us,
which
I
guess
is
good
but
he
gets
worse
because
he's
around
them
everyday
and
night.
I
just
don't
know
what
to
I
have
so
much
to
say
but
no
one
to
talk
too.
When
he's
clean
he's
a
really
good
person,
but
I
have
two
kids
to
think
about.
But
at
the
same
time
I
can't
give
up
on
him,
I'm
truly
the
only
one
he
has.
His
mom
turns
her
head
to
the
whole
issue
as
if
nothing
is
wrong
with
him,
just
like
she's
done
with
her
other
sons
who's
been
on
crack
for
18
years
more
on
then
off.
Please
help
I
feel
like
I
have
failed
him
and
have
failed
my
kids,
