hey
everyone, i
wrote
a
blog
last
night
to
which
i
replied
a
with
a
note
of
thanks.
There
has
been
so
much
change
im
my
life
latley
due
to
coming
off
the
drugs,
changing
my
enviornment
and
moving
away
from
my
old
area
,
even
if
it
is
for
a
short
tijme,
and
detoxing
and
evem
though
i
have
my
cousellor
who
is
one
in
a
million,
i
still
have
to
say
this
site
and
people
on
it
have
been
an
absloutley
massive
help
to
me
and
u
all
will
never
know
how
much
i
appriciate
what
you
are
all
doing
for
me.
Amyway
feeling
a
good
bit
better
today,
probably
due
to
the
steoids,
augmentin
and
valium
(which
im
not
planning
or
going
to
take
in
the
long
term
cos
i
dont
need
or
ever
want
to
detox
off
anything
else.
I
forgot
to
metiom
yesterday
iin
my
blog
that
the
doctor
said
aswel
that
i
have
a
throat
infection,
it
was
very
hard
to
even
swallow
water
or
a
hot
drink
but
thats
getting
better
too.
f@ck
i
feel
like
all
i
do
in
my
blogs
is
compain...
sorry....
im
sure
ur
all
sick
of
listening
to
me
at
this
stage.
Anyway
the
doc
yesterday
wanted
to
put
me
back
up
on
my
methadone,
...wonder
why
that
was??
Hmmm...maybe
cos
im
no
use
to
him
when
im
off
it,.
Then
he
actually
said
'
well
i
think
u
should go
into
residential
treatment
for
3
months
when
ur
off
the
methadone?
'
HA,
should
that
not
have
happenend
(if
id
have
let
it)
when
i
was
coming
off
heroin
in
the
first
place...all
the
f@cker
cares
about
is
his
money,
well
im
more
determined
than
ever
to
get
off
that
sh*t
and
off
his
list.
That
doesnt
mean
i
wont
go
to
the
clinic,
but
i
wont
see
him
anyway,
il
go
and
see
my
counsellor,
she
has
been
a
great
support
to
me
and
im
sure
il
need
her
more
than
i
have
had
in
the
coming
weeks
an
months
cos
without
the
methadone
my
support
in
that
sense
will
be
gone
so
il
need
to
talk
alot
,
if
i
know
my
head,
an
i
do
-sometimes,
i
kmow
it
will
be
all
over
the
place.
My
blood
pressue
was
92/57
which
if
im
right
isnt
great...
but
i
suppose
thats
to
be
expected
aswell...
Im
writing
alot
too,
which
i
find
good
for
my
own
head,
so
thats
helping.
Another
thing
suggested
in
my
last
blog
by
a
commenter
was
that
i
should
take
baths.
well
unfortunatey
when
my
mother
bought
this
house
she
doesnt
take
baths
-
none
of
us
were
ever
into
them,
especially
since
i
just
get
bored
and
donr
know
what
to
be
doing,
any
way
she
took
the
bath
out
and
just
put
in a
double
shower
so
i
guess
gettiing
in
the
sh0wer
a
few
times
a
day
when
im
feeling
like
that
would
probably
do
me
good....?
I
met
a
guy,
taking
it
slow,
especially
at
the
moment,
i
know
him
through
friends
down
here
so
i
know
what
this
one
is
like,
well
to
a
certtaiin
extent
anyway
so
thats
something.
Im
not
looking
for
anything
serious,
or
non-serious,
not
looking
for
much
really
just
my
3
'expectations'
To
be
treated
with
respect,
honesty
and
love/caring.
Not
asking
for
too
much
i
dont
think,just
what
i
feel
i
need
and
deserve.
Anyway
thanks
for
listening
to
my
babbling
and
crap
again
guys.
You
are
all
a
massive
support
to
me
and
i
appriciate
you
all
to
no
end
and
hope
i
can
help
any
of
u
in
the
ways
u
have
helped
me.
By
the
way
even
though
i
selected
'SAD'
as
my
mood
im
not
exactley
sad
im
just
kind
of
pisssd
of
and
confusd
and
in
pain
so
i
thought
it
was
the
next
best.
