I
had
a
great
weekend
,
got
of
work
early
blew
home
and
got
changed
an
went
to
the
club
whhere
i
work
to
see that
new Fella
iv
ment.
Had
a
greet
night,
went
back
to
his
house
after
(not
for
the
kind
of
thing
i
know
ur
thinking
of
now
though
)
and
we
just
sat
an
talked
for
hours!!!!!!
just
like
we
have
done
every
time
iv
mer
up
with
him.
Im
actually
happy,
get
a
smile
on
my
face
thinking
of
him
but
its
not
the
same
smile
when
i
think
of
Mr.
X
(The
love
of
my
life
iv
blogged
about
a
few
times)
but
never
the
less
i
still
get
it
and
really
really
like
him.
He
has
this
way
he
talkes
to
me,just
like
he
is
REALLY
talking
to
me not
just
watch
words
come
out
of
my
mouth
and
give
a
few
grunts
in
acknowledgement.
He
is
a
good
person
with
a
kind
heart
(u
know
when
u
can
just
tell
)
and
i
know
about
him
from
other
peopel
who
all
seems
to
love him,
when
we
were oout
the
other
night
a
5
min
walk
took
a
hal
hour
cos
of all
the
people
stoppin
an wantin
to
talk to
him and
he
has
a
past
too
just
like
i
do,
(not
an
addictive
one but
something
like
that)
but
iv
actually
told
him
a
little
about
the
drugs
and
he
is
cool
with
it.
I
know
it
may
sound
like
im
reaally
hopping
in
here
with
both
feet
and
the
2
arms
aswell
but
im
not
as
this
has
happenend
all
over
the
course
of
the
past
2
weeks
and
i
decided
in
myself
with
the
help
of
my
cool
buddys
here
that
il
only
tell
someone
if
I
feel
the
need,
if
I
feel
comfortable
and
right
with
it
and
with
him
i
didnt
even
THINK
about
it,
i
just
wanted
him
to
know,me,
the
real
me,
past
-
prestent
and
future.
Not
that
im
goin
to
let
any
of
that
crap
from
the
past
f@ck
up
the
good
life
i
have
at
the
moment.
Everything
is
really
good
at
the
momment,
im
happy
being
'friends'
with
this
guy,
im
happy
in
my
work
and
im
happy
at
home!
the
only
thing
is
my
doctor
but
u
all
know
the
stpry
there
so
i
womt
get
into
it
again
an
bore
you!
Just
to
update
u
witht
the
situation
there
though
im
down
to
9mls,
wil
be
going
to
6mls
tomorrow!
(obviously
happy
about
that....
and
a
bit
scared
seen
as
i
was
so
sick
on
monday
with
the
withdrawels)
I
went
to
a
normal
family
docotr
down
here
too
thats
nothing
to
do
wit
the
clinic
and
told
him
everything
so
he
sorted
me
with
a
few
tablets
and
im
feelin
much
much
much
better
with
them,
sleeping
patterns
are
a
bit
f@cked
up
but
thats
to
be
expected
isnt
it
anyway!!!
Im
driving
3
years
with
what
we
call
a
'provisoinal
licence'
here
in
ireland,
its
basically
for
people
whp
havent
done
an
actual
test
but
iu
get
it
to
learn
to
drive
etc.
so
anyway
i
have
my
full
test
this
sat
morning!!!!!Iv
done
4
pre-test
lessons
and
have
annother
2
before
then
so
hopefuly
il
pass
it!
If
not
it
wasnt
expensive
to
do
(€40)
so
it
will
be
good
experience...but
i
hope
i
pass
anyway!!!!
Well
thats
all
the
news
i
have
anywya
and
for
once
it
all
seems
to
be
good
hope
eveyones
doin
good,
lv
ya's
xxx
P.s
-
Did
anyone
notice
i
LOVE
the
new
smileys
hahahaha
