I
wonder
if
I
will
ever
work
through
the
fears
that
keep
me
distanced
from
the
people
in
my
life.
Some
day’s
my
family
and
friends
seem
strange
to
me.
I
see
that
they
are
there
but
I
feel
very
little
inside
about
them.
Disassociation
formed
a
barrier
that
protected
me
when
my
body
was
being
sexually
abused.
Now
disassociation
hinders
me
from
feeling
the
presence
of
those
around
me.
Today
I
will
be
gentle
with
myself
and
experience
today
as
it
is
and
not
how
I
want
it
to
be.
I
will
make
plans
for
the
future
but
I
will
not
plan
the
results.
Today
I
will
work
on
opening
up
to
the
possibility
of
positive
change
so
that
I
may
heal.
Zencat.
“The
only
reason
we
don't
open
our
hearts
and
minds
to
other
people
is
that
they
trigger
confusion
in
us
that
we
don't
feel
brave
enough
or
sane
enough
to
deal
with.
To
the
degree
that
we
look
clearly
and
compassionately
at
ourselves,
we
feel
confident
and
fearless
about
looking
into
someone
else's
eyes”.
~
Pema
Chodron
