Addiction

My Face
My face is a mask I order to say nothing
About the fragile feelings hiding in my soul.
-Glenn Lazore (Mohawk)




When you can stop, you don't want to. When you want to stop, you can't. (Casper, Candy)




if god can preform miracles then you'd have to think that Satan has a few tricks up his sleeve as well..(Dexter)



There are no secrets in life, just hidden truths that lie beneath the surface. (Dexter)



We are all here because of narcotic and/or alcoholism addiction. Me both... So anyway, this is going to be about who I am not who I was, I was a pretty bad person for quite a while so I'm done thinking about it.
I now am a very successful recovering addict. I have wasted too much life being in an altered world, and life is just too good to be clouding up with sh*t, or ending My life for a high. I know I was saying that before, but now true to myself I know it wasn't even fun anymore, just a nasty 24/7 job that was draining every last bit of life I had. Things I can enjoy again, or maybe actually for the first time in 15 years. Music is much of my life, especially going to shows, and especially now that I am clean. I like leaving and knowing what I just saw. I have 2 dogs both labs, Molly and Dozer. I also have a cat named Dee Dee, got him the day after Dee Dee Ramone died, another victim of that wonderful opiate. His sober spirit lives in my cat though, you should see him wail on the bass. I drink Coca Cola for breakfast. I like walking around in the woods, Bushwhacking, Horticulture, swimming, stealing the tops of mountains, etc... I play the drums. I like beating on things... hehe.. Been playing the guitar too,and now my new bass... How do I all of a sudden have money again...hmmm... I am a bit of a computer geek too, into graphic design digital imaging stuff. Will be going back to school again soon at the Art Institute of Pittsburgh online. Trying to kill all the lazy in me. Like things hands on, and to create things, anything works, really digging the sense of accomplishment, especially more recently. Being more at peace with myself. All in all I am in progress of getting my sh*t together, and very happy about that, I'm going places in life now. I'm not trying anymore, I'm f@cking doing it!

Being Happy, Standing in warm rain and feeling alive, and at peace, and thinking of how small and insignificant I am in this universe, Mountains, Rivers, Lakes, Fire, Hiking, Camping, Mountain Biking, Long boarding, Soccer, Ball Games, Music, Concerts, Snowboarding, Skiing, Snowshoeing, Hanging out, My pets...

withdrawal, chasing for more, being broke, wearing long sleeves all summer, feeling low, relapsing constantly restarting my clean date, ignorant people, People who can't admit when they are wrong, people with bad intentions, crappy music (which isn't a lot because I love music, it is in my soul.)


On a brighter side, enjoy!

I like most all music that doesn't suck in my eyes...

Grateful Dead - Playboy after dark





The Queers





Motorhead - Stay Clean

Anything with lots of pictures...

Bad Santa, Airplane, Candy, American Psycho, American History X, Outside Providence, Goodfellas, pulp fiction, Requiem for a dream, Spinal Tap, Silence of the Lambs, Sweeny Todd, Eternal Sunshine on the Spotless Mind, The Usual Suspects, American Beauty, One Flew Over The Cuckoos Nest, etc, etc, etc...

Yoga, meditation, holistic life, and everything else spirituality to complete harmony in my life.











Found this pic of me from '98, gave me a chuckle and brought back forgotten memories...yup pure granola head then..haha..