Let's start from the beginning.started drinking and drugging at age 11.The sole purpose was to get completely out of reality.Mother committed suicide when I was 12,Father drank himself to death at 15.Drugs and alcohol probably saved my life during these times of gloom.I always ran from life,but always brought Gregg along.Went to the Marine Corps at 17 and did relatively well.Upon discharge from military I developed a heroin habit and drank constantly when I couldnt get a fix.I have done everything to stay high.In early 1991, after being hospitalized for a ruptured esophagus,I wanted help.I moved into a halfway house for 7 months.Igot a sponsor,worked the steps and did alot of service.For the next 5 years sober, I married,became a father,and became financially secure.I was miserable inside.All the baggage that built up over years of using closed in on me.False pride and ego stopped me from asking for help.My marriage failed and I picked up the bottle.A year later I got sober again 11/97.Married again,carrying the same baggage of my past.Divorced again.This time I got into therapy and got gut honest w/sponsor.In 03 I broke my neck at work and started on Oxycontin.The year I was on pills I felt that sense of entitlement that oldtimers have mentioned.3 weeks of detox.I have been clean&sober since 7/10/2004.My son's mother passed away 08/2006 due to bad doctor.I have had custody of Jacob since then and I still get the self-doubt tapes playing in my head.Today I live on a spiritual plane and keep my life above board.I do service,sponsor,and I am very honest with my sponsor.I am truly blessed and try to show newcomers that they are blessed through the steps.I work for Pathway To Recovery .I keep life simple and stay teachable and open-minded.
Riding my sporty on cool summer mornings.My son's laughter.People who practice generosity incognito.Strong Coffee,and Death By Chocolate ice cream The 3 Kings,,,Albert,B.B.,and Freddie
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