Addiction

I have been through an incredible ordeal. I got into recovery recently. Best thing I ever did for myself. I am a Father of 3, 2 boys in WI and my precious daughter who is with me most of the time. Went through a bitter break-up and am learning how to live by myself. I am either a Type A personality or an asshole. I am now a brutally honest person. I finally got into recovery after 4 attempts, this last time was the one. I lived 23 years of incredible success and equally incredible failure. I found pure joy in life and indescribable suffering. My future is unknown, this is foreign to me. I do know that I am in recovery today and I am getting used to that. I don't particularly care for all of my feelings but I have no choice. I have lost enough, suffered enough, inflicted enough pain on myself and others. It's time to try something different. I look forward to life, I think of myself as a tree that never fully blossomed. I am learning to appreciate myself, I spent most of my life trying to be what others wanted me to be. I am an individual with my own personality and thats cool. I can like what I want, be who I want, I can accept other people uniqueness. I'm into different cultures,languages and foods. I can believe whatever I want and be happy with myself. My daughter loves animals and it has made me rethink a lot of my old ideas. No hunting, getting some pets. I enjoy the beauty that is life, I am now a very spiritual person. I like different and unique people, i call it the spice of life. I have a huge heart, since recovery I have found that I am a big pussy. Thats ok. I was a coward before. I love women and women tend to love me right back so I have to be careful with that. A drug is a drug, right? I was once very successful but in the wrong things. I am still finding out who I am and what I want to be when I grow up.

I'm still figuring that out.


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Superficial people. Dysfunction. That pretty much sums it up.

Just about anything. Not really into country though. Very rock and progressive oriented.

Sci-Fi, Fantasy, Recovery, Politics, Global Economics, Advertising, Business, The Art of War, Guy stuff....

Any sobriety movie. Full Metal Jacket. Star Wars. JFK. Stupid date movies. Anything from the 80's.

video games. Reading. Working out.

Recovery Happens
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