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Ok...people mentioned that I dont have much about the real me on here, so here it goes. I'm 35, married with a 19 month old who is the love of my life. I'm your typical abused child, grown adult who now abuses self. Throughout my teens years til now i have been hospitalized for suicide attempts and have gone through anorexia, bulimia, self mutilation and drinking. Just had a rough patch due to med issues and delaing with some of the abuse issues. I'm trying to get and keep it together for a change. There seems to be alot of hiccups along the way lately but life on lifes terms.

Being around my daughter, work, nice, sincere, true people as well as empathetic and caring people. I like reading and love being outside, whether it is by the pool or going for a walk. I love the summer because can use the beach. The ocean is so quieting to me.

Insincere people, angry obnoxious people, people who feel they can put others down,arrogant people...people that pretend to care and just want to screw with your head and thats about it. Also people that use you and then disappear. Am so sick of people telling me they will be there for me and bailing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Dislike feeling like I don't exist and tired of giving others the control to lessen me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Reading, computer, kickboxing, dancing, playing with daughter, relaxing outside in the sun

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Jennifer
Birthday:	July 13th
Birthplace:	Long Island, NY
Current Location:	LI, NY
Eye Color:	brown
Hair Color:	blondish/brown
Height:	5' 3
Right Handed or Left Handed:	lefty
Your Heritage:	italian, norwegian and a mixture of other stuff
The Shoes You Wore Today:	brown flip flops with stones
Your Weakness:	feeling I'm not in control
Your Fears:	thunderstorms, the past sh*t never going away
Your Perfect Pizza:	plain with cheese
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	get clean from everything
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	lol
Thoughts First Waking Up:	sh*t I'm late
Your Best Physical Feature:	dontl ike any of it but get comments on legs and butt..lol
Your Bedtime:	10:00 during the school year, and whenver during summer break
Your Most Missed Memory:	not sure what that emans
Pepsi or Coke:	diet pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	both..like burger king burgers but mcdonalds fries
Single or Group Dates:	single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:	vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee:	neither, like tea
Do you Smoke:	when drinking
Do you Swear:	hell yeah
Do you Sing:	not well
Do you Shower Daily:	yes
Have you Been in Love:	yes
Do you want to go to College:	been there, have 2 masters degrees...am done with it
Do you want to get Married:	nope, already am
Do you belive in yourself:	nope
Do you get Motion Sickness:	nope
Do you think you are Attractive:	sometimes
Are you a Health Freak:	lol....no
Do you get along with your Parents:	mom died and dad abused me so nope
Do you like Thunderstorms:	NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Do you play an Instrument:	used to play the flute
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	yes
In the past month have you Smoked:	yes
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	only prescribed ones
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	nope
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	lol..yeppers...live at the mall
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	nope
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	yuck
In the past month have you been on Stage:	actually yes at school to announce the fashion show
In the past month have you been Dumped:	nope
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	only just opened the pool so ask me in another week or so
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	nope
Ever been Drunk:	yep, thats an understatement
Ever been called a Tease:	yes
Ever been Beaten up:	nope but been in too many fights
Ever Shoplifted:	nope
How do you want to Die:	have to come back to this one
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	already grown
What country would you most like to Visit:	not sure
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	doesnt matter
Favourite Hair Color:	doesnt matter
Short or Long Hair:	short
Height:	taller than me
Weight:	average
Best Clothing Style:	My style switches weekly with my moods
Number of Drugs I have taken:	no comment
Number of CDs I own:	shelves full
Number of Piercings:	2
Number of Tattoos:	none but decided to get one with my daughters name
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	too many to list
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