Addiction

after 23 years of active addiction i got clean on 7/11/89. i attend NA meetings, have done tons of service work and H&I work in alaska, montana and here in arizona. i am recovering from 2 heart surgeries in the past 23 months. i am in the process of trying to collect SSI disability.i have 7 sponsorees, i have played the guitar since 1968. i have 4 kids and 4 grandkids. i lived 36 years of my life in alaska. i live in arizona now and love the desert. i have had 20 surgeries in the past 19 1/2 years. with 6 years clean i became an insulin dependant diabetic. after active addiction life catches up with you fast. just remember that recovery is a journey not a destination and use the rest stops God provides along the way. check out my website at www.jjrocksarizona.com. i see a lot of people have told their war stories on this page , you know i don't believe in telling war stories because we all lived them and survived them. that makes us NA warriors. to me its not how much clean time do you have but what have you done with it? my wife cheryl and i met on an online dating site called udate.com. the day was 9/12/01. the day after the worst terrorist attack in the history of our country. cheryl is my true soul mate. she laughs at my stupid jokes, lends me a shoulder when i need to cry, does all the work i am not allowed to do anymore. she said she fell in love with me the minute she saw me. the first time we met in person she drove over 800 miles across montana to spend a weekend with me. she got to hear me do play by play for the high school football game, do a 2 hour classic rock show on the radio station i worked at. i also at that time did the morning show on a (barf) country station. but a job is a job. during our time together i have gone through 8 surgeries. the last two being heart surgeries. in january of 2007 i had a major heart attack and had to be flown to las vegas for a triple by pass i had to have 2 pints of blood and died for 7 minutes on the operating table.they took three tries with the electric shock paddles to get me back to life. i am ever so grateful for the dr.'s and nurses who took such good care of me. this past january one of the by-passe's quit working and i had to have a stent put in. but she is my angel of mercy and love. we have gone through some extremely rough times the kind that might have taken a few people back out. but we know that going back to our old lifestyles is useless. as i said i do not like to tell war stories. my drug of choice was any, more and yours. i was a very stingy doper and did not like to share my sh*t with anybody. today i will share my recovery with anybody. what a gift we have truly been given. i am so ever grateful for all the addicts that consider me a friend and brother in recovery. if you have a chance to change your life then do it. i got to survive drugs of the late 60's, 70's and 80's. most of the drugs i did they don't even make or grow anymore. the crap out there today scares the sh*t out of me. knowing that my kids are doing that garbage worries the hell out of me but all i can do is remain an example of NA and hopefully someday they will too get the message. thanks to all for sharing your recovery with me.sometimes some of the replies i give might be a bit harse. they are not meant to be. i only give suggestions that have actually worked for me. whether or not they work for you is up to you and your higher power. this is a selfish program and i am here for me not you. if by some chance our path's cross then it was God's will. thanks again for sharing your recovery with me and calling me on my bullsh*t.

playing guitar, going to the drag races with my wife, hanging with NA friends. going to NA meetings. playing on the praise and worship team in church.spending time with my wife cheryl. working with my sponsorees. sometimes they teach me just as much as i teach them. i love spending time with my animals. cheryl's dog is a 130lb long haired german shepard named leo. he looks like a wolf.my dog is half sharpei and half pitbull his name is grizzly bear named after my chocolate lab who died from diabetes in 2006. we also have 2 cats one siamese named skitz. because he is. and we have an orange tabby we named scooter. he showed up on our doorstep two years ago on my birthday. so he was a great present. i do like tattoo's. i got my first one at the tender age of 48. i now have 3. i want more but we all know what they cost and financially i am not in the position to add any more ink to my body yet. i loved being a radio pronounsticator. that's radio talk for a DJ. i could list all the stations i worked at but it would take a while and i am not sure if this mind of mine can truly remember them all. 17 years on the air loaded and 18 years on the air clean. i have had other jobs from being a cop, security guard, chef, convenience store clerk, rock concert promoter in alaska. playing in a lot of different rock bands. in fact when i was in the service i was the only white guy in a black band. you could always tell the honkie on stage because he was out of step. that was back in the early days of disco 1972 and 1973. i am grateful for the life i got to have. i have always said i had a lot more good times than i did bad using but when i finally got clean i was still suffering from the peter pan syndrome. i never wanted to grow up. i was always told by family and friends that i would not live to see 35. i got clean when i was 2 months shy of my 35th birthday. it truly was the best thing i ever did.i recently quit smoking after 42 years. hardest thing i ever did.

judgemental people, stupid drivers, dumb people, people who just can't see that recovery is possible by attending meetings, getting a sponsor and working the 12 steps.people who just have to talk on their cell phones while trying to drink coffee, smoke a butt and drive at the same freaking time. i have always wondered if cell phones were bulletproof. i also have a hard time with addicts in meetings who introduce themselves as hi i'm___________a recovered addict. if i remember right in "what's the NA program" it states that "we are a group of recovering addicts who meet regularly to help each other stay clean". i also don't remember ever reading "recovered addict" anywhere in the basic text. but i guess i"m just "old school" when it comes to recovery. yes the lie is dead we do recover. but my addict is doing one armed pushups behind my back 24/7. i know for a fact that i will never be cured of my addictions. i say addictions because NA helps me with more than just my drug addiction. i hope it does for you too. f@ck keep coming back, JUST STAY!!!!!!!!!!!

classic rock, oldies, praise music, jazz. two kinds of music i don't like are country and western. was a radio DJ for 35 years.love carlos santana, lynyrd skynyrd, molly hatchet, .38 special, the outlaws, bb king, stevie ray vaughn, robert cray, allman brothers band, AC/DC, Black Sabbath and so much more. music is my life. being a guitar player since 1968 i have forgotten more songs than i can remember how to play them. my wife's dream when she used to write in her diary was to find a man who could play the guitar and serenade her.i am still working on my playlist for you to enjoy. always remember your never too old to Rock 'N' Roll!!!!!!!!!!

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clive cussler books, john sanfords books and many more.

i like action and comedies. of course i am a huge fan of the batman, spiderman, fantastic four, daredevil,elektra movies. of course for action thrillers you can't beat the "die hard" series. with the last one being the best one.

playing guitar, listening to music and reading a good book. hanging out with my wife. i own a gibson les paul jr. which i play through an 80 watt Marshall amp, i have a 15 year old fender cut-away acoustic i use a dimarzio pickup in it. and an infinity acoustic electric. in my life time i have owned more guitars than cars.going to meetings and working with sponsorees.

Classic Rock	~~Twice As Twisted~~